Thought I’d mention that this is a post long overdue, however, I would still like to post this anyway for the sake of documenting every waking moment, thought, emotion, and memory in the course of my journey… enjoy xo
The holidays are approaching and it still feels to me as if Fall has only begun. It is insane to know that almost 5 months have flown by since I have decided to live in LA by myself. Time truly flies when you choose to keep yourself productive. I have grown so much throughout the time and am only continuing to do so..
I cannot begin to express how grateful I am to have experienced that opportunities I have had so far– including the highs and lows. It really has not been easy, but I only remind myself that there is so much ahead of me I have yet to experience. As I have mentioned in my earlier posts, this Christmas of 2019 I will be performing with a band for a great cause. This event is a Christmas Benefit Concert meaning all funds will go towards the bandleader’s nonprofit for kids with anger management issues so that the kids lead much healthier lives. I am currently in the works of preparing as it is only a couple weeks away, and it hasn’t been the easiest road. While I do have my self-doubts in my skills and abilities, I also know that I have God watching over me in great faith. I don’t do any of this for the attention as that was never my concern, but I do things for the greater good. And as long as I believe in the reasons why I make the decisions I make, I also no there could be no wrong. I want to thank everyone so far who has taken the time to visit, view, follow, or even comment on my stuff as it restores faith and hope in my purpose. I appreciate every kind word and thought as it truly means a lot to me. As I have said, this is only the beginning.
Been exploring a number of genres lately to broaden my musical palette, including Gospel– which I think may be essential for any aspiring vocalist.. Anyhow, thought I share some gems with you that I discovered on the great wonder called Youtube. True music for me reaches the soul and you can most definitely feel that with this music. Some gospel artists I’ve recently discovered and have been inspired by are Yolanda Adams, Kirk Franklin, Clark Sisters, Donnie McClurkin, etc. Been reevaluating and rekindling my relationship with God as of lately, and have found him through the greatness of gospel music. Videos below for inspiration.
Excited to announce that I have a secured a spot to perform with a well established band in Los Angeles. I feel so incredibly blessed and lucky to have this opportunity. I will be joining a band in their Christmas concert performance, who is known to play classical soul, funk, R&B music. The concert will be taking place for a good cause, and I only feel honored to be a part of it.
The leader of the band and I have been in correspondence for a while as we have been meaning to collaborate on music for quite some time. The amazing part of having this opportunity is the fact that it is a Christmas benefit concert. All funds will go towards children with anger management issues to ensure they get the help they need to live happier lifestyles. As someone who aspires to build her own non profit herself, this is a great chance for me to learn from others who are doing the same thing. I am so lucky and blessed, it feels as though things are falling together for me to help me accomplish my long-term goals. There will also be A/B/C listers at the concert who are regular guests for the bands’ appearances. Aretha Franklin’s manager will be there along with many others alike, retired football players and others flying in from other states like Georgia to name a few. It’s going to be a huge event, and I can not be any more excited. This is a chance for to gain some exposure as an artist while also experience performing live in front of a huge audience of about 200-300 people. We will be performing Christmas and holiday songs that will appeal to everybody and who will find a liking to.
As a sneak peak, I thought I’d include a snippet of me performing for rehearsals and recorded by the band leader himself. Quite honestly, there is no other place that feels like home than to be on a stage, holding a microphone, and pouring my soul out in the form of notes and melodies. While I can appreciate my performance (and I hope you do too) I am a perfectionist and so, it makes me so uncomfortable to hear my mistakes in the video. However, as an aspiring vocalist, I am learning every day to become a better artist. As I’ve always lived by, mastery takes humility and this is only the beginning. Anyhow, hope you enjoy.
I suggest you put your volume up since it is a bit low in the video!
Netflix just released a new series called Rhythm & Flow, and it’s fire. The show entails stars Chance the Rapper, Cardi B, and T.I. on the hunt for the next rap star. They visit the four biggest cities which resides the hub of music: Chicago, New York, Atlanta, and Los Angeles. The winner gets $250,000 cash prize alongside a feature with big name rappers. It’s an all or nothing deal. Let me tell ya’ll somethin’, there was some damn talented rappers out there. You can tell simply by their presentation and delivery, who was serious about winning, and who wasn’t. By their cadence, style, flow, lyricism, and their overall energy who was the real deal. Also who has been in the game the longest! My top favorites are definitely: D Smoke, London B, Flawless, and Rae Kahlil (who I personally think was robbed in this show which you’ll have to watch to find out!). You can tell that they have put some much time, effort, and love in their craft that its so admirable. I think the rap battles is where their artistry and confidence as an artist truly shows. Despite of doubt and tribulation, they did that. It only encourages me to work at my game and to be patient with myself. Because I think all it takes is a little skill, perseverance, faith, and hard work ethic. Those who are natural stars will simply shine brighter period. But it’s up to the people to see it and decide for themselves.
Overall, all that aside, I am a bit skeptical about the judges and the way they have approached the show in terms of their judgments. In my opinion, I think there is possibly a better match team of judges who I think can offer more valuable insight into the art of rapping (though the judges did drop some words of wisdom). Idols, in my opinions, with much higher credibility. In my opinion, there should be legends and more main star appearances of OG rappers like Snoop Dog or even ice cube. I think this will give more overall value to the show. To me, the current judges are simply the face of modern rap music (while Cardi B and Chance the Rapper have somewhat generated a household name for themselves, they haven’t left a legacy that give them the credibility to critique other artists’ work). So it only leaves me under the impression that the show is more a matter of entertainment than the true art of rap (much like how singing competitions like American Idol and The Voice turned out). But any who, who wants to hear about semantics, right?
If ya’ll want to keep up with the culture, I definitely recommend the watch. Certainly not a waste of time if you a fan of the arts yourself. Can also read more about the show here.
Long overdue, but hope ya’ll enjoy this one.
♫ haters be lurkin’ to see what I’m about
n****s talk shit like they can’t close they mouth
tell me how ya’ll gonna hate on me
when some ya’ll be bitchin’ livin’ off daddy’s money
you know ya’ll hoes got nothing on me
but still be watching’ my every move carefully
yuh, don’t know know anything about hustle & grind
for everything I got, I put my money, love, & time
can’t hate on someone you don’t know
some ya’ll need lil love in your lives & it show
hold up, lemme check myself before I put ya’ll on blast
always thinking’ ahead, pull a quick one on you fast
not here to start drama, know I stay above that
I’m just me, speak the truth. no cap.
life’s too short to dwell in the past
they say make memories you know gonna last
I’d bet a million bucks on me any day
I’ll flip your shit side up tomorrow & change the game
pen & paper, didn’t know I was a writer
you bet, everything I spit, I spit is fire
I got 1,2,3 bitches starin’ at me
but I didn’t choose the music, the music chose me
They look at me & wonder, how I do it
I do it for myself, the people, the music
I do it because I got no other choice
This who I am, this my voice
I do it for the right reasons, and people listen
for me, it is more than a dream but a m*therf*cking vision
I got words flowin’ straight from my mouth
one day, I promise to show up & show you out ♫
Instrumental from Alicia Keys “Unthinkable”
♫ Pen on my paper, always on my grind
Imma switch it up cause I need a peace of mind
I write this rap shit, dumb shit, cause I say what’s in my heart
to me, it’s more than numbers, it’s all a work of art
When I wake up in the morning, the anxiety over take me
I shut my demons up, ain’t no one going to break me
They look at me and doubt me, but don’t know a thing about me
They wanna talk like they know me
homie better get up off me
I keep my head low and work hard in silence
I ain’t with that loud shit, that shit just violent
pops always told me to not speak to loud
never was one to follow the crowd
If there’s one thing I’ll tell ya
don’t doubt the misunderstood
because they’ll do it better
thank you think you ever could ♫
I know it’s been a minute, but thought I would drop a little something for you guys. Went out of town for a little break to visit my family in Georgia. Had a great time seeing the family again and can’t wait to share more of my trip with you guys on here. In the meanwhile, I have been dying to create new music and have been coming up with new stuff to share with ya’ll. Here’s a little piece I did on Chris Stapleton’s Tennessee Whiskey, in honor of the country side! (maybe soon to be home..??). Anyhow, hope ya’ll enjoy this super rough cover. Don’t want to disappoint and will be coming out with more original stuff in the future. Please like, comment, and follow this post and show some love on my IG Singing Account @the.highsnlows too, for more!
Peace & Love,